I think i get it…maybe?

Over the past month I’ve had time to reflect on how I treat myself, and allow others to treat me. If you’ve TRULY taken the time to do something like this I can guarantee to you that there’s something in all of that stuff you hide behind that you don’t like. So why not change it? It’s just mind over matter right? If self-improvement were that easy I doubt that antidepressants would ever be prescribed, that gyms would open at 5 am, or that tabloids would sell faster that a real news paper. We’d all have it figured out and be trillionaires!
Ah, but, life my dear is not that easy. So, what have I done? I’m (read: slowly) making changes,in life, relationships, and work. Notice, there’s been no mention of My Love? I can’t even begin to touch on the subject without re-enacting the All By Myself scene from Bridget Jone’s Diary (you know the one!!) That’s the stage I’m in right now, raw. Who REALLY loves to see post after post of sugary sweet love anyway hmm? OK! I do, I think it’s great to be able to open yourself up to something so wonderful I cannot joke about it. *sigh* Right now, I can’t even picture it for myself, when I try…and I have to TRY, it just never seems to click. I have to be ok with it, and just focus on other aspects of my life in the here and now.
SO! I’ve decided that I have to focus even more on DMae, getting things even more in order professionally, and summer is on its way so there’s bound to be something fun ahead. Talking to an old friend of mine last week really helped me clear my head a bit. I was so stuck on..What can I do…maybe if i just…why can’t it happen this way…i want it now now NOW!! After the pity party for one, came me acting on the things I want. Again, the process is slow,but it’s happening.
I’ve hit a brick wall, and am trying to make my way over, under, or through the damn thing. I promise to bring you more coherent posts in the coming weeks…a sneak peak at the new totes I’ve been working on, a few more What’s Good Post, and maybe some more general life posts? What do you say? My advice to anyone who’s stuck, going through something tough, or if you just need a kick in that arse? MOVE!! GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY!!! Try something new, read this past post a few times, and talk it out with someone who loves you and takes no shit…it’ll help believe me.
How do you deal with your brick wall moments?
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